10.19.2014

tourists in munich

A while back, boyfriend finally came over to Munich! After not seeing him for more than a month, we pretty much just wanted to lay low and spend time together. However, since I had been working pretty much non-stop that first month, not having any time to really get out in the y city, I wouldn't be me if I didn't squeeze in some touristy activities in there!

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Boyfriend planned his trip pretty strategical, because he came here during the last week of Oktoberfest, the world's largest funfair! It's basically a two-and-a-half week party of drinking beer, wearing dirndl's and lederhosen, and eating typical German and Bavarian food. Before I went, I wasn't even a beer-drinker, but now I've converted. I was very surprised at what the atmosphere was like, especially in the beer tents - everybody is so into it, which makes it so fun to partake. We went there early in the morning, since I was craving some crepes for breakfast! Fun fact: the festival was first held already back in 1810, when festivities were held out on the Wiesn (the local name for the Theresienwiese, where Oktoberfest is held) in honor of the marriage of crown prince Ludwig I. and his Therese!

10.17.2014

four fall goals

hello fall!

I'm a total goal-setter - always thinking about what to do, what to accomplish. Many new years have started out with excessive, endless lists of what my plans for that year were. Looking back though, I don't think I ever realized many of those goals. They always kind of backfired: by the time February came around, I was already frustrated and brought down by the fact that I hadn't lost those five pounds yet, read those ten books on my to-read list, or picked up that habit of running and was awesome at it. I bet I'm not the only one disappointed in herself in February, right? Starting out as a way to 'become happier', this obsession with to-do lists and long-term goals seems to be rather self-destructive in a way. Because, what is more toxic to the soul than the feeling of failure and disappointment in ourselves?

I don't propose to throw goal-setting out of the window completely - its good to have a general direction in life. And as a big lover of lists, I just couldn't scratch that from my life. However, when it comes to my personal goals they tend to be all about the future, not about the now. And that's were I want to be: right here, enjoying the right now, be more mindful about it. I once came across this Four Simple Goals project over at A Beautiful Mess, which is about choosing four simple goals that will make your life richer and happier on a daily basis; activity based, not focusing on a result - which sounded absolutely perfect to me! This year, I'm committed to fulfill four simple fall goals before the beginning of December:

1. Bake a fall-inspired cheesecake. My cheesecake challenge is still in motion, and it's time for another one! I've been wanting to try something out with pumpkin, like this marble pumpkin cheesecake, pumpkin cheesecake muffins or perhaps some pumpkin cheesecake tarts.
2. Write more. During high school, I loved writing just for my own pleasure. Many stories about fictive characters in the oddest situations were typed out on my little old computer. Somewhere along the way, when I started college and wrote paper after paper, writing stories got pushed back a bit. In November, I want to get back into writing, and start a writing challenge like this one or this one right here.
3. Start a scrapbook. I've been coming across so many amazing scrapbooks on the internet, and it seems such a fun way to get your creative juices flowing. I do think I need some help to get started, and plan on throwing in some extra self-love as well and get started on Gala Darling's Radical Self Love Bible.
4. Get out and discover Munich during the fall. I love fall, but more in the kind of indoors way, you know? The idea of a lovely fall day, leaves are falling down, perhaps some rain drizzling down and I'll be inside, curled up on the couch with a good book, a cup of tea and a crackling fireplace in the background, or roaming through a beautiful forest on a sunny fall day. But basically my fall-experience is pretty limited to me heading out to work in the morning and back home in the evening through the pouring rain, while mud-splatters ruin my shoes and I'm trying to balance my umbrella and cup of coffee to stay dry and warm, whilst the wind is blowing my hair in every direction. But deep down, I know fall has it's charm. I want to head out during the weekend as much as possible, and discover Munich in all its fall-beauty.

What are your goals for this season? Happy fall everyone!

10.12.2014

all of life's riddles are answered in the movies.

As I mentioned before, a movie can do the soul some good. They make you feel a little less desolate when you're feeling lonely, can give insights, motivate reflection upon your own life, or just make sure you'll have a good laugh - it can be whatever you want it to be. I've always been a big fan of the movies. Learning new things, getting a little peek into someone else's (fictional) life, loosing yourself completely in romantic storyline, saying goodbye to the real world for a few hours.. During this first month on my own, movies were definitely there for me and made those nights alone a little easier. Here are a few of my favorites from these past few weeks!


♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ / 5 Take This Waltz tells the story of Margot, who falls in love with her neighbor Daniel across the street. Her infatuation starts to get to her, and she no longer knows if she's happier in her marriage or in the fantasy she has created around her relationship with Daniel. The movie sets forth in a slow pace, but is hauntingly real and beautifully made.

10.04.2014

instadiary september

The month September always feels like a new start. The new college year has begun, the seasons are changing, pumpkin spice has taken over the world.. I must admit, this September was a crazy busy one!

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1. September was all about my new internship abroad! On the 7th of September, I moved to Munich and started working as a curatorial intern in one of Munich's great museums.
2.Hey Pablo! Munich has many, many, many museums, it's crazy! I saw this beauty of an early Picasso at the Pinakothek der Moderne.
3. So happy that there were still some few sunny days left, I got the most delicious ice cream after getting off of work early. Chocolate, Greek yoghurt with honey, and torrone with nuts, delicious!

4. A new city meant searching for a new running route! Luckily, Munich has some amazing spots, such as the English Garden. Pretty, right?
5. I got into the habit of reading a book during my lunch break. Bossypants by Tina Fey is absolutely a-ma-zing. Laughing out loud amazing, I promise!
6.I'm so excited that my new place has an oven! The first bananabread has made its appearance, and I think it might be time for a new cheesecake as well.

7.To make my new place feel more like a home, I've been on a flower-buying spree. These dalia's were my favorite!
8.I've also been trying to get back into a healthy dinner routine. I bought a spiralizer a while ago, and was amazed (!!) at how my zucchini spaghetti / zucchetti came out.
9. A Munich must: Oktoberfest has begun!


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9.28.2014

moving abroad, all by yourself

I've been living in Munich for three weeks now. Whereas it is an exciting, big, sparkly adventure on the one hand, moving to a foreign country all by yourself can be pretty though and confronting as well. For everyone who is on the verge of setting foot in a new country for a job, internship or studies, or perhaps even just moving to a new city in your own homeland, but doing this all on your own, this is what the past three weeks have taught me about making home, all by myself.

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Make it feel like a home
After a long train ride, plane flight or being dropped off by a loved one, that moment when you are in your new place, all alone, kinda stings. Nothing makes you feel more alone like those bare walls, a single, unmade bed, empty closets and a desolate desk. Feeling at home in my new place became much more easier when I hung up some cards and letters from my best friend and filled out the open closet space with my books and pictures. I also bought myself a bunch of flowers, a little plant, spread out candles all throughout the room and bought myself a big cosy comforter. Make it your new favorite place to come home to after work or class.

Get back into your regular routine
Though those first few days are pretty hectic, running around, organizing things and buying even more. But getting back into the little routines you had before you moved might help feeling more at ease. For me, these are working out and cooking healthy and regularly, the two things that make me feel good about myself, but also tend to be pushed back first when times get busy. So if you ran three times a week, baked cookies every Sunday or worked on a scrapbook Monday evenings, keep doing that!

Actively meet new people
Personally, I find it really hard meeting and connecting with new people; I'm always a bit more introverted and concerned about the impression I make. However, moving to a new city does force you to actively go out and meet people, if this doesn't happen naturally in your work place, university or building (though also in these cases, one needs to put an effort into actually meeting these people around you). I knew there weren't going to be many interns at the museum, nor is my current housing a very sociable place. If it were up to me, I'd be good with curled up on my bed with a good book, but five months of solitary reclusiveness isn't going to make a person happy. A big help in this case was Facebook. I joined a group for girls and women of all ages who were new to Munich, either foreigners coming here to work, intern or study, but also Germans from cities all over the country, who had made the switch to Munich. One the one hand, it's a very accessible tool: post a message, people respond, and off you go! However, for some (me) it still might be scary, meeting up with a bunch of people you've never met before, other than an enthusiastic comment on a Facebook-page. However, you must realize: they are in the same situation as well. By no means do I support random meetups with people from the internet (always be safe and know what you're doing, where you're going and make sure it is in a public space), but so far it has worked out really well. The get-togethers have always been very casual, relaxed and without any further obligations - so if you didn't enjoy it, you're off the hook as well! I've met many nice people over drinks and dinner, making me feel a little less alone and a little more at home.

Plan some fun activities by yourself
Meeting new people is always good, but you should also be able to enjoy you're own company. Though many people might not enjoy going out by themselves, I love wandering through the city by myself, discovering new shops, cafes, parks or museums, and getting a feel for the city's structure. Being able to find your way in your new hometown will start making it actually feel yours.

Get comfort food!
A while back I read an article's title which said that comfort food doesn't exist (refused to read the article instantly). Let's just forget that, okay? You don't need to stuff yourself with every pack of candy that you find on your way or all the french fries your fryer can take. But cut yourself some slack and let yourself indulge a bit. We all have certain foods that make us just feel a bit more happy, right?

Watch as many movies and shows as you like
I still hear my parents shouting, 'don't watch too much TV!' But during those moments when you feel alone, and don't see any chance of getting out or calling home, movies and TV-shows can be the perfect company. Many have pulled me through some long and lonely nights, curled up in bed. Stick around for some of my favorites next week!

Give yourself some time
Maybe the most important one: give yourself some time to feel at home. All these new impressions, new faces, new places, they can be quite overwhelming. Maybe you wont get it all together within the first few days - lords knows I haven't. I've been beating myself up for not being in an optimal work-state or the social butterfly I'd like to be. But it takes some time. So be nice to yourself, give yourself some time to relax, to accommodate, and it will all be fine in the end!

9.22.2014

cheesecake challenge: bailey's cheesecake.

My love for baking and cheesecake is not a secret. Nor is my love for Bailey's. Every year when I visit my father and his family, these three loves get stimulated very very very strongly. This year these loves even met in very close and intimate way. Specifically ordered by my family, I present: the Bailey's cheesecake.

Bailey's Cheesecake

I don't drink a lot. Really, not even on a weekly basis. Sometimes a glass of wine when I'm out for dinner, and a cocktail or two when I'm feeling really wild during a girl's night out. But to call me a real drinker? Not really. I don't particularly love it - I'd rather eat something delicious than have an alcoholic drink. But! There is one exception. I absolutely love Bailey's. Now, I don't drink it that often - gotta keep it special. But sometimes, while watching a movie, crawled up on the couch, a Bailey's is all I need. I'd say it hardly counts as a real alcoholic drink, it's like milk!

My dad's wife is well aware of my love for Bailey's, and also this year a nice big bottle was being chilled for my arrival. During a lazy Sunday afternoon, when a discussion lead to the millions of cakes I should be making for them during my stay, she came up with the brilliant idea of a Bailey's cheesecake. And I just couldn't resist.


9.17.2014

owning up to my stories pt. two - anxiety

A while back I read the book ‘The Gift of Imperfection: Let Go of Who You Think You’re Supposed to Be and Embrace Who You Are’ by BrenĂ© Brown. She talks about the power of vulnerability, and owning up to our stories – that is, the painful ones that might be seen as imperfections in this world of ours – to reach happiness in your life and with yourself, which she beautifully describes as Wholehearted living. As someone who is constantly striving for happiness, while in a constant battle with my imperfections, this book seemed as if it were written for me. During the next couple of weeks, I will take a leap, and share my stories with you. Feel free to share yours as well!

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taken during one of my many 'panic walks'.



That little big voice of perfectionism doesn’t leave you untouched. From inside it has sprung into a million little sidetracks, affecting my day to day life. Being in a state of constant high pressure, being brought down from morning till evening takes a toll on oneself, physically and mentally. The stress of my mind always first goes straight to my body. Migraines, nausea, upset stomach, back- and neck pains – but it is the state of constant anxiety that was the hardest to deal with.